Heh.

In my talk with Betty, she brought up an interesting subject. She mentioned how everyone has that someone that they can never really shrug off. The one person that you always wonder those what if’s. What if she liked me in return at some point? What if I did this instead of that? What if we got together? Yeah. Those what if’s. And then she asked if I had such a person. Without a second thought, I responded with an ‘of course.’ Because everyone has that special someone who occupies that lonely space in their hearts. The crush that never worked out. The unrequited affection. The painful yearning. Likewise I have such a person. With her ‘oh really’ smile, she asked who it was. I didn’t need to answer because she pretty much knew who it was. Sigh. But still. Those what if’s? They’ll never be answered. Forever questions they will be. And an honest thought from me: Given the chance to go back and be able to do things differently, I would. There’s one specific thing I wish I could have done differently. But this is not for myself, oh no. Not so that in anyway, said girl and I would get together or the like, but so that others, her included, would be happier. But enough with beating around the bush with no specific details. I might have blurted out too much already, in case somehow someway against all odds that all the wrong people come to the wrong conclusions. Sigh.

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